Dark Zen Meditation Part 1
Q: What is the meditation of being mindfulness of in-and-out
A: From the perspective
of Dark Zen it means that fundamentally we are unrelated to in-and-out
Q: What! I have never heard
that before. I thought that mindfulness of in-and-out breathing
meant that we must follow our breath. Isn. t that right?
A: If you follow something,
aren. t you led by it? In that case you are less than what you follow.
And don. t you also, as a consequence, become more of what you follow?
Q: Yes, of course. But isn.
t that what the Buddha is telling us to doing this particular form
of meditation? I mean. aren. t we supposed to be aware of our breathing?
A: Why would the Buddha,
who is detached from his corporeal body, teach his students to be
dependent on the breath cycles, as if to be led by them? Maybe he
is telling his students to remember what is before in-and-out breathing
so as to be aloof from any kind of breath attachment. and overall,
the mortal body.
Q: Give me a practical example.
I am confused right now.
A: When I meditate, I first
recollect the antecedent source of my breathing. In this state,
when breathing is going on, I maintain a recollection which is prior
to the totality of breathing which is most imperceptible.
Q: I am still confused.
Explain to me again what you mean.
A: First, assume the proper
meditation posture that you have been taught. Next, just breathe
in and out for a few seconds. Fine. Now, do this.
Activate your out-breath so as to breathe
it out. Next, activate your in-breathe, so as to breath it in.
This would be like actively thrusting your hand out, then taking
it back in thinking, I am thrusting my hand out; now I am drawing
it in. So, do that now with your breathing. And think all the
while that what is doing the breathing is always prior to both
Q: Okay. It. s a little
strange, but I sense a small . energy. of sorts growing in me when
I do that. I see what you mean. Curiously, something is happening.
A: Hey, that is great! That
means that you are energizing your breathing by being a little bit
before it. Just let me say, that the more prior you can manage to
become, the more you will sense the breathing as being energized.
Q: Where does the mindfulness
come into play?
A: Mindfulness actually
means to recollect that which is, let us say, the one who is free
of breathing! This one is always before in-and-out breathing. just
remember that. By recollecting it, the more of you eventually begins
to spiritually separate from the body. in a spiritual way that is.
thus being able to distinguish the body from that which is not the
Q: May I ask you where you
learned this type of meditation?
A: If I told you, you wouldn.
t believe me. In the course of practice, many things happen which
cannot be explained. One day you just try something different. Then,
pow! Something extraordinary happens. Then you re-read a few Sutras
and discover the Buddha was a slippery old devil. Nothing magic,
but nothing ordinary either.
Q: Do you think that maybe
you invented something new?
A: Let. s put it this way
- I was just lucky to discover what I think the Buddha figured out
a long time ago.
Q: Do you practice it? And
what is it like?
A: Sure. After a while you
can even get past your heart beats. Sometimes I can, for a moment,
get past the body. It is quite weird.
Q: Do you teach this kind
A: No, not personally. I
haven. t either the space nor the money to teach. In what amounts
to living in a back room and eating beans and rice, I do the best
Q: I don. t believe that.
Well, anyway, I hope someone helps you.
A: Me too. But I don. t
expect anything. We just happen to live in a time when everyone
wants money and power. Most people could care less about this kind
of stuff, unless, of course, it helps them with their task of making
a million dollars! [laughing]
Q: Is this meditation of
yours like zazen?
A: Not at all. Zazen is
like waiting for a bus. My meditation is like flying. I should say,
however, that all forms of meditation are directed towards overcoming
our fixation with the body and all its problems. Why would anyone
meditate thinking, I want to experience great pain whilst meditating?
No, instead we sit and try to come to some kind of inner peace.
To bring this about we try out different meditations like following
our breaths or counting or just sitting. Most of these forms, however,
don. t work. And many kid themselves into believing that their meditation
is making progress. With Dark Zen. s meditation - progress is known
without a doubt.
Q: How is that?
A: Because Mind is the leader
of all things.
Q: You. re saying, it seems,
that because Mind is before all else and all else comes after; that
by remembering our beforeness during breathing, we are, in a way,
tracing our steps back to the original Buddha Mind. Is that right?
A: Say, do you want to take
over? [laughing] Hey, that was good. But you figured it out because
it is so natural. That is what I love about Buddhism - it. s like
the religion of the universe. It is simple and elegant. But I am
afraid we humans are getting too complicated these days. And maybe
that is why Buddhism seems difficult. But I am digressing, I am
Q: So what is it like when
you meditate - I think I have asked this before?
A: Well, I. m at that stage
where the more of me is identified with what is not my mortal body.
I guess you could say I sense my mind affecting my body. s nerves
so as to energize and lead my body and thus not follow it anymore
as to be its slave. As a result, my body tries to comport itself
with mind and shape up! Automatically, I began to eat less, sleep
less, and care less about dying. One also senses another body growing
which is like clear light, but with bliss. It is kind of neat. your
own secret delight.
Q: Well that sounds interesting.
I sure hope you do something with this meditation and share it with
the rest of us.
A: I hope so too. It would
be fun to have everyone all jacked up on joy!
Dark Zen Meditation Part 2